Tag: friendships

Cold Coffee.

I have a habit of filling up all of my free time with friends, conversations, or various things to do. A big part of it is because I adore spending time with people I love. I think the other reason though, is then I don’t have to sit in my own head for very long.

When I have some time to myself all I do is self-reflect myself in circles.

I worry constantly. About everything, and everyone.

I’m trying to learn not to. To simply enjoy a little time to myself this morning with my coffee.

So far I’ve already thought of 10 different things I should get done before the work week starts up again. People I should message to ask this, or that. Housework I need to do.

Do I have any groceries I need to buy?

Don’t forget to call the dentist in the morning tomorrow!

I’d love to just be able to sit without my mind constantly shouting things at me.

It’s not that I don’t like being in my own head.

It’s just that it never shuts up.

If you have ever been having a conversation with me and then notice I look mildly confused, that’s just me pulling myself back to reality after getting stuck in my head, yet again. I was probably far away in there, so it takes a minute to come back to myself, process what you just said, and then formulate an appropriate response.

I find it a fascinating trait when I can sit and explore it.

It’s also an incredibly annoying one when I’m trying very hard to be present in the moment.

I suppose this blog, whatever else it is, is a way for me to express pieces of where I go when I disappear.

A way to bring myself back, and relate to others who do the same sorts of things.

Or maybe even just help someone understand that their absent minded friend may be thinking of a thousand and one things while processing your conversation, and simultaneously berating herself for not being able to fully focus on your words.

I’m sorry. Could you repeat that?

Anyways, now my coffee is cold so I’m going to stop writing this, go pop it in the microwave, and promptly forget it’s there… 😂

Stay present in the moment if you can, but whatever you do, stay you.

😊💕

My Tribe.

I’m very fortunate to have friends who remind me it’s okay to lean on other people.

They reminded me this week that it takes a tribe. To not let my pride, and my stubbornness get in the way. To ask for it when I need help.

Sometimes I need those reminders.

Sometimes we all do.

People need each other. We need people around us who we trust, and who we can rely on.

I almost feel like I was drowning in that ocean the other week only to finally hear a shouted “Hey dumbass! Look behind you!”

Dumbass being used affectionately here, of course. 😂

I feel like I turned around to see an ocean littered with buoys, and rafts, and life boats. Friends reaching out their hands, offering a drink and an ear, some giving me a look that clearly said “I’ve been telling you we were here.”

So thanks.

To my friends and family who are always there to lend an ear, to watch the kids when I can’t find a sitter, to hang out and talk and have fun, and those who remind me that it’s okay to ask for help.

❤️